i dont know how to go on

why does it feel like that ?

it was fine before

was it?

um

it was okay.

it wasnt real before, was it ? everythign came around afterwards.

yeah...

its so overwhelming.. people talk a lot about love for others, and scientifically, but rarely i think the psycological aspects

what is this thing thats gone, how does it make me act so much differntly from normal? changed brain chemsirty 11

i like it , but

how... what is it doing

how does it interact with other lived experiences?

youre not even a six year old yet. its way past your bedtime, do you hear yourself?? wel make some yummy macroni for breakfast if you sleep now

okay goodnught mommey i love you bigge r than world 🥺

i dont know

its all coming into view lately, but it brings more questions than answers. thats how i like it, though.

i lilke myself a lot more now, too.

you also kinda hate yourself more ?

mm

trials and tribulations are not hate, and pushing through them is an act of self love

i find a lot of joy in taking care of myself too.

how can you want kids ?

idk. i want kids cus i want kids ! even if im not able to make a informed decision, it makes me happy and feels really important !!!!

awawawawa,,

its also been surprised how much it wants mommey